[Originally posted on 7/24/13 on another host]
Just a quick hit with this post.
I went out with Lady O the other night; our schedules hadn’t allowed us to get together for about a week. She slept over and we had some pretty nice sex; fairly similar to the session I described in some detail a few posts back.
Not real sure where this is going. I like and respect Lady O, and I enjoy her company–both when naked and otherwise. But I don’t really feel like I’m falling in love with her. In my experience, if that hasn’t at least started to kick in by this point, it isn’t going to.
And then there’s Red.
I haven’t mentioned her in this blog before, and there’s at least a decent chance I won’t mention her again, unfortunately. But, here’s her deal: she contacted me through a (vanilla) dating site I belong to and expressed interest. I was very intrigued–her profile was interesting and her pictures were gorgeous. And I don’t throw words like that around lightly.
We agreed to meet a couple of days later and had a pretty nice dinner-and-drinks first date. She definitely lived up to her pictures. She’s a few years younger than me, she’s well educated, and she’s in a very admirable profession. So she’s beautiful, smart, and has a wicked sense of humor. I was well on my way to being smitten within the first hour.
Like I said, the date went pretty well. She was a little nervous (I don’t think she’s dated much since her divorce), but I felt like we both had a good time. We kissed a little bit, but certainly nothing too serious. I could easily see myself falling hard for her.
I definitely wanted to see her again, and we got together for dinner last night. On some level, I think things went pretty well. I enjoy talking to her, and she seemed to be having an OK time. But (and there was inevitably going to be a “but” here, wasn’t there?) I’m definitely feeling like she’s not all that interested. We talked about getting together this weekend and (barely) kissed goodnight.
Maybe we’ll see each other again, maybe we won’t (if I had to bet, I’d say the latter is more likely). But I’m not going to chase her, as attractive as she is. I gave it my best shot, and she’s either going to feel it or not. Based on a few years going through this process: if she doesn’t feel it, I’m not going to convince her to.
I haven’t heard from her today, and I don’t want to always be the one who texts first (and I realize how middle-school that sounds). We’ll see where things go, but I’m not optimistic.